Pharmacist by day…but by night?
For years I lived a double life to escape the monotony that was my reality. As a pharmacist, drugs/alcohol was not really an option, at least not with all the drug testing going on in the work place. It led me to my guilty pleasure, my escape, my way of checking out mentally. That led me to writing fictional novels.
I often wrote when I was on vacation at my lake house. Of course everyone was having a good time frolicking in the sun, swimming etc. But after decades of growing up in that environment, I had been there done that. That too was boring. Everything was boring.
Even playing Candyland for hours was boring. I love spending time with my children and family but I needed something more.
While doing these mindless activities, I would be concurrently day dreaming about the next chapter in my novel. My mind would fill up with scenarios for the book. At night when everyone was a sleep, I would write. I lived my life like this for years, on and off.
However, I never had the courage to publish my novels, until now. This novel was a mental escape to the happiest time of my life=college. I turned the fictional scenario into a learning experience. This story is what I wish I could have told my younger self. It’s about finding happiness (book description below)
I also went on to write a salacious political novel. It is about how I would run the country given the opportunity to improve it. I wrote that novel after I had read 50 shades of Gray. I wondered, why is this author a multi-millionaire and I’m an unappreciated pharmacist feeling abused. I thought I could write a better novel than 50 shades of gray, and so I attempted to do so. I allowed myself to go down the path of erotic scenarios. But when the book was completed, I felt like I had sold my soul.
The main character in the book was not how I was. Maybe portions of me were in the main character as well as the other characters, but it definitely did not represent my life.
I still contemplate deleting that novel. No one has read it in its entirety. I’m not sure it would be well received. We’ll see how the first novel does. But until then, I have completely given up my secret life of writing novels. I now live in the moment. I pay attention. I live and learn and make corrections. I now solve my problems instead of ignore them and hope they go away on their own.
And the good news is…that once I started living in the movement, paying attention to my life, and solving my problems….my life became better. Happier. More successful in every. way.
I now write medical articles, and my pharmacy career has never been brighter. I think it is become I’m now more engaged with my career. I’m more connected with the other pharmacists around me. I am able to empathize and understand the people around me better.
Question: Should I use my real name when publishing this book? or a penname? I don’t want it to discredit my medical articles and books in anyway. Karen Berger has read my book in its entirety and says I should be proud of my book, and not use a penname. Karen believes honesty is the best policy, and the truth always comes out in the end. IDK. Any thoughts?
Update: Gunda has published her novel under the name of GK Siska and it can be found at this link: https://www.amazon.com/dp/109619824X?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860or https://www.amazon.com/dp/109619824X?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860